You all know how obsessed I can get with stuff. My latest obsession is quite disappointing sometimes. I am trying not to put my heart in it for fear of more disappointment. But is this how I want to do things?

What creates a disappointment? Expectations. I should work on my expectations then. I know they are logical, but are they rational? I’m a pretty logical person but by no means rational. I will need to justify those expectations based on experience and reality.

Blah blah, yada yada, blah blah!

I had a wild dream last night. As usual, my alarm woke me up far too early. Is my subconsciousness messing with me? It truly is screwed up. Is it what i want? But.. even if it’s what I want, it’s definitely something I won’t get. This is not the first time.